Challenge #1

Do not do the things that are on the list of things that make me feel unhappy.

Actions

Things that make me feel happy

-reading a sad or realistic book
-knitting
-hanging out with friends
-exercising
-being outside
-being with my family
-watching comedies
-getting good grades

Things that make me feel sad

-reading a happy book with unrealistic relationships
-being alone for too long
-being with my mom for too long
-being in the same place for too long
-watching too much tv
-getting bad grades
-not having activities to do on the weekend

How to change 1

I am self-conscious about my body and yet I never fail to turn to food for comfort. If I want to change, I need to take action.
I will lead a healthier lifestyle.
I need to stop comparing myself to others. I will not look at fashion photos of other women.
I need to find more positive inputs.

People who are positive inputs
-cao
-rac
-gar
-hil
-mar
-man

People who are sometimes positive, sometimes negative
-mic
-sha
-han
-kyl
-spe
-mot

People who are negative inputs
-jul
-ren
-joc

What I like 1

I like that I am smart.
I like my hair colour.
I like my eyes.
I like when I make people laugh.
I like my smile.
I like my silhouette.
I like that I am reasonable.
I like that I am ethical.

Parents

Thank you, mom, for never talking to me about body changes and body image; I am now unable to be comfortable around anyone who talks about their body.

Thank you, mom and dad, for never talking to me about sex and sexuality; I am now unable to open up to anyone or be comfortable talking about sex.

Thank you, mom, for always telling me to suppress my anger and other emotions; I am now incredibly numb and emotionless.

I feel guilty for complaining about my parents because they are loving and tried their best, which is a million times better than a lot of other parents in the world. However, I think that forgiving their mistakes will be one of the last things I do before being completely healed.

Why I want to change.

I have low self-esteem.
I am unable to form new meaningful relationships.
I do not think I am worthy of love.
I am unhappy.